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juckforge @ 2009-07-18T02:27:00

2009-07-17T18:29:15Z

2.27 AM
and I am thinking about my life.

I think I was stupid but at least I had a passion for something.
But above everything else, I wished I were never alive.

Somehow, I am still alive...

juckforge @ 2009-06-17T15:24:00

2009-06-17T07:27:13Z

God is fair. Sometimes, I get my peaceful days too! =]
Like today!

Anyway, the article on Lady Gaga shot up to topped Youth.SG "Popular!" chart in two days!
Record breaking! Ah well.. I know it is mostly the subject matter but still.. HAPPINESS!

Today is a great day but still...
Enjoy this song. BASTARD!

juckforge @ 2009-06-15T02:53:00

2009-06-14T19:02:49Z

Gaga-ed today away. Attended her press conference in the morning and her private showcase in the evening.

Back from her concert about 2 hours ago. Now I am completing the article on Lady Gaga slated to publish tomorrow morning.

Friends of mine, click Youth.SG tomorrow morning and support my article.

Will update with a direct link soon! =D

no more goo goo ga ga. (from you anymore)

juckforge @ 2009-06-14T02:59:00

2009-06-13T19:08:30Z

Went to catch the closing performance of the Singapore Arts Festival today.

Imagine seeing fireworks shot up the sky less than 100 metres away.
And you are standing a circumference of fireworks.

You see a panoramic view of pyrotechnics shot up into the night sky in unison.
Magnificent I say.

I never was ever a big fan of fireworks.
Until someone once told me that person I loved, loves to watch fireworks.

That was when i finally paid attention to where and when you can catch a display.
Now I still tske the effort to find out where I can catch a pyrotechnics performance, but this time, for myself to catch the spectacle.

I care for myself more now.
And that's why I am going to celebrate my birthday for myself this year.

In short, I'm good. (with or without you)

juckforge @ 2009-06-08T22:50:00

2009-06-08T15:00:09Z

As I type this entry, my eyelids are really heavy I can just sleep on the floor.
But this busyness is making me very very happy.

Why you ask?

Because I am so busy, I have no time to stop and think.
(or give a damn)

Thanks.
for having no time to be upset.

HMMM WHAT CAN BE WRONG?

2009-05-31T15:33:28Z

Was checking out some prices for airfares to Tokyo and I came to JetStar website.

I felt quite uneasy when I saw this picture! Okay. Why not you tell me what's wrong.

This is really, really weird!!!

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The answer: The guy got no nipples! MAJOR WEIRD!

Some more is photoshop away one lar according to my sis!
I think so too. Well, where gt people no nipples one right?

To go to Tokyo is so dirt cheap now. It's my only chance.
Swine flu? I will risk it.

Nothing to live for anyway.

juckforge @ 2009-05-31T03:45:00

2009-05-30T19:47:08Z

Dear friends,

If you know I am living in denial, please do not point it out.
There must be a reason why I am that way.

So let's just leave things as they are.
Let me live in my denial. =]

Thanks,
Jorge

juckforge @ 2009-05-23T01:35:00

2009-05-22T17:38:07Z

I am so scared of myself. I have never hated or loved anyone more extreme than this.

one liner so you know I am alive.

juckforge @ 2009-05-08T16:20:00

2009-05-08T08:25:22Z

I quote from someone from a forum thread that I started on Youth.SG quite some time back,

"If the person can simply leave you & just move on with life, it just shows how much he/she loves you."

Now that made me think there are rules that you have to go by when judging people.
Let's face it: everyone judges everyone else!

dare to hate but dare to love too.

juckforge @ 2009-05-02T00:17:00

2009-05-01T16:34:27Z

I have the best job ever! I get to drink beer in office in the name of work.
But I only drink milk because beer is harmful to my body!

不用麻烦了，不用麻烦了。
我虽然是个牛仔，在酒吧只和牛奶。
为什么不喝啤酒？
因为啤酒伤身体！

心爱的你走去叼位？
我那的隆没看到你。

CHEERS TO GOOD LIFE

juckforge @ 2009-04-22T19:07:00

2009-04-22T11:08:36Z

Alien loves predator.
Whoever wins, I lose.

Been well on my job with Youth.SG for coming to 7 months already!
YES! I am very surprised too.

Well well.
Anyway, I really wish to get into army soon!
Throw bomb, shoot gun, kill enemy!

=]

juckforge @ 2009-03-14T00:49:00

2009-03-13T17:34:23Z

Yesterday, i felt like i have grown taller.
Like about 1 or 2 cm. It occurred to me when I was pressing the doorbell when I came home.

WOW! speaking of growing up, I think birthdays marks someone growing up year by year.
We don't realise that we are growing up daily, as well as ticking down to death daily.
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I recall 2008's birthday.I turn 19 last year.
What i did: Stayed at home waiting for a birthday greeting.
Basically, I did nothing. In a way waiting for someone to ask me out.
My oh so nice family told me to get my own cake when I asked them where my cake is.
So much for buying them a cake for the birthday annually.
In the end, I had to ask my friend out for dinner.

-sad awww in background-

2 years ago, my worst 18th birthday in 2007.
I lost my wallet on my birthday together with my IC, about $50 cash, bank card and a photo.
Basically, I stayed in school to do schoolwork that day. Clearly remember I had to down bread for dinner that day because I had no money.
Went home at about 11, bathe and then slept.

-sadder awww in background-

Bringing you 3 years ago, 17th birthday. The last birthday celebration i had.
I had 1 present and a dinner at Seoul Garden at a location the convenience of my friend.

That fateful day:

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And i m predicting that this year, I will spend birthday in NS!
If i don't will someone pretty please celebrate my birthday for me?

Anyway, a song to end this post: If Everyone Cared by Nickelback

I desperately need a birthday wish
and you to celebrate my birthday for me.

juckforge @ 2009-02-19T02:03:00

2009-02-18T18:06:01Z

Open letter to those who care to know

Today's walk home from the railway station seem especially fruitful.
I had not wasted my time at all.

I sorted out so many thoughts.

I know what I want. =]
And this time, I am sure.

Cheers,
Jorge

juckforge @ 2009-01-10T03:13:00

2009-01-09T19:14:54Z

There is going to be a solar eclipse on first day of chinese new year!

Here are the details:
Date: 26 January
Partial Eclipse Timings (Singapore time)
Eclipse begins: 4:30pm
Max Eclipse: 5:49pm
Eclipse ends: 6:58pm

I am going to momentarily lose my powers!

Love is not blind. It's retarded.

2009-01-06T09:05:30Z

I found this article on ST and i thought that woman is very stupid. Tell me about love is blind, this one is just retarded.
Extracted from here.

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Hubby's genitals set ablaze

SYDNEY - AN AUSTRALIAN woman who allegedly set fire to her husband's genitals because she believed he was having an affair appeared in court on a murder charge on Monday.

After the fire spread through the family home, Rajini Narayan, 44, told neighbours she had only wanted to burn her husband's penis 'so it belongs to me and no one else,' prosecutors said.

'It's just his penis I wanted to burn, I didn't mean this to happen,' she was quoted as saying, the Adelaide Advertiser reported.

Prosecutors said Narayan's engineer husband Satish was asleep in their double-storey Adelaide home when his wife doused his genitals with methylated spirit and set them on fire on December 8 last year.

The blaze spread when he jumped out of bed and knocked over the bottle of spirits, causing around US$700,000 (S$1 million) damage to the house and a neighbouring property, the court heard.

Narayan, 47, died in hospital last week.

His widow was remanded in custody until Friday, pending the results of a psychological assessment. -- AFP

juckforge @ 2009-01-01T19:09:00

2009-01-01T11:18:19Z

Today is definitely one of the laziest new year.
Not like new year other years are happening and all,
But this year's consist of waking up at 2pm and then going back to sleep cause the rain is so fun.

Anyhow still was a good new year.
Cause one of my interviewee dropped me a call to tell me happy new year!
Rather surprising.

Anyway its frankie. i remember tt time i met him, he was just recovering from colon cancer.
And he kinda told me that he was going for a surgery on the 7th of Jan.
So anyhows, wish him luck.

And regarding the article I wrote abt him, u can read him here.

juckforge @ 2008-12-23T01:13:00

2008-12-22T17:22:53Z

THE RULES!
bold the statements that are true to you
italise the statements that you WISH are true
leave the fibs alone
then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before. (both adult and child)
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends’s ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

you 5 do this!
sean firoz, rongwei, melvin lum, gloria, melissa

juckforge @ 2008-12-15T01:51:00

2008-12-14T17:52:34Z

Ms. Kartini got married already. I was so excited today.
I can hardly believe myself too

Congratulations woman (and to your man too)!
Great days ahead for u two as man and wife. =]

juckforge @ 2008-12-10T00:41:00

2008-12-09T16:52:42Z

Travelling, you only stop at exit and wonder if you should stay.

Therefore I am angry.
Very.

Someone told me, we should remain friends.
But rarely talks to me, does not want to answer my call.
Would not want to see me, any dates are rejected.
I am angry you lied SO OUTRIGHTLY.

Someone told me, I like you.
Maybe - I just thought - maybe.
Then the pace went so fast, too fast for me.
I am angry that the friendship is broken.

Someone told me, one day.
On others nothing is told to me.
Then came the request.
I am angry that you asked for it.

Leave, all of you, like I don't care.
Leave, all of you, like I care.

juckforge @ 2008-11-26T23:53:00

2008-11-26T16:02:36Z

Some incident today triggered me to realise that no matter how understanding I think I am, I can never ever get this question right: "Do you know what's wrong?"

Because of that, I think I am really bad boyfriend ~~material~~ junk. Because in a relationship quite a long time back, I have always gotten this question. But I have never ever gotten the right answer.

Because I always could not see what was wrong exactly.

I just thought to myself, "But I did what I think was right. I only did it because I think it was right and so there's nothing wrong with it."

But because I believe in what I do, i think maybe i am just a fucking selfish guy who think it's okay because I think it is.

But, who is to judge what's right or what's wrong? What I think is best may not be what you think was best.

What i mean to say that the question itself is a paradox. How can you ask me what is wrong with what is right?

As much as anyone might want to impose on me what they think is right, sometimes I think their way of doing things is wrong and I do not accept it.

And when faced with similar situations, most of the time, I just cry

which does not solves absolutely anything at all.

in the case i die, tell R for me that i still love R.

juckforge @ 2008-11-26T00:13:00

2008-11-25T16:20:56Z

Nothing usually catches my attention when I walk home from the train station everyday but this guy's candles made me turn my head.

This picture probably speaks a thousand words. That move is sweet.
Whoever you are and whatever you were trying to achieve; good luck to you.

But I wonder what he did or is planning.
Did he cheated on the girl and was going to ask for forgiveness? Was he planning a proposal? Is this part of her birthday celebration?
The possibilities are infinite.
But i sure hope the ending is positive. =]

juckforge @ 2008-11-23T01:52:00

2008-11-22T17:57:47Z

DANG! He beats me to being cute. Anytime.

Contrary to what I expected, his spoken English was GREAT!

I so would have style my hair and wear something nicer if I remembered I was going to interview him.

Now, when am I going to meet Jay Chou face to face?

Still love you!

2008-11-19T14:55:27Z

Yes. I went to the concert for free. "Complimentary", it reads. Oh! The perks of my internship. Luckily i had not pay to watch this concert if not i would tear my hair off my head. Cheapest also $95 eh!

You might want to read my very similar article on Youth.SG here.

The Rihanna fan speaks.

*silence*

Cock up #1: Mini Britney concert!

The songs that were playing before the concert start to entertaining impatient waiting audience was rather soft. The song right before the concert was very very loud though. 'Womanizer' was its name. Kinda shocked me out of my chair thinking that the concert started abruptly. It also didn't help that the rest of the crowd started to sing along and dance to 'Womanizer'. Okay. This ARE tickets to Rihanna's concert. But am I at the right place right? This IS RIhanna's concert right?

Cock up #2: Disturbia was DISTURBING!

My favourite song was the opening act. In fact it was why I was even there. You know, it will definitely be very impressive because well, it's the opening song. This one even gave a good surprise! Karaoke version/Instrumental Remix! But the damn mic just had to fail at her one-night-only performance. This is murphy law's very working! And my dear Rihanna had to pose around and not get the mic changed immediately. By the time she had the mic changed, the song had already ended. I hope that she would have redone Disturbia. But she didn't seem give an eff. Her apologies came in this form: "SINGAPORE!!! I love you! I really enjoyed tonight!" Puhlease! Go and get the mic changed! What are you waiting for? A miracle or Chris Brown?

Cock up #3: Change your clothes!

She did not change costume until 3/4 into the concert. That is bad! So you think you are going to impress with just one costume? I go hawker centre eat also will change clothes once. You concert you are only going to change one set? That's as good as me.

Cock up #4: Come out and encore!

Everyone knew she was going to do and encore. Umbrella? Take a bow? She left out these two songs for encore. Every knows she won't leave without singing this song. Com'on. Where's the surprise? Maybe if she did Disturbia again. But NO! She did not! DARN! You think you are going to walk out of the stadium alive without singing those two songs? Thank god you did not not sing those two songs.

Cock up #5: End my torment!

The ending was an even bigger shock! The concert was about 1 hour, less than that. $95 minimun for this concert for this even cheaper concert? NO WAY! Lucky my ticket was free!

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And I am not even going to praise her that she sang live. She is supposed to sing live, it's a concert. Or that she can sing well. She is suppose to be able to sing well. She is a singer. It's only professional that she can sing. A maths teacher that cannot count or a chef that cannot cook. It's only in professionalism that she knows how to sing. Nothing worth complimenting about. What I mean is you don't go "OH MY!!! Tao Li can swim!!!" Do you?

OH! How about a round of applause?
Yeah, standing ovation?
But you put on quite a show!
REALLY had me going.
But now it's time to go.
Curtain's FINALLY closing.
That was quite a show.
REALLY entertaining!
But it's over now.

opportunities sometimes get sick of knocking on doors

2008-11-11T10:09:20Z

To two people out there:

People are like chances.
You miss them and they are gone.
Grab yours before anything changes.
While stocks last.

=]

small man with a giant heart: Nick Vuljicic

2008-11-07T18:04:05Z

That man there is Nick Vuljicic. Got to first hear of him when Joanna, a junior of mine in secondary school, offered me - i think - a seat in her church to hear him speak.

Together with her kind invitation, she passed me this video.

And that video made me go, "I ~~HAVE TO~~ MUST interview this man!"

So I went to look up a little about him and learnt that he was going to speak next at the Young Leader's Conference at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, which I was invited to go to.

But on the day I was suppose to go the event, I saw this poster in the office lift that said he was coming to speak at my office!

I was like, "MY OH MY! I AM DESTINED TO MEET THIS MAN LA!"

So, I just met him on Friday and MAN!, he is one hell of a great guy who's got a giant heart. =]

I swear he is such a funny guy; He even calls his little foot a chicken wing!

Without arms and legs, I am surprised that he lives a happier, more confident and more fulfilling life than many of us out here.

Surely and definitely, he is an impressive guy who's inspired me to lead my life happier and stop complaining that life is tough and annoying to live.

P.S He is damn handsome!